Preacher Man

girls at church service

He came all the way

from Orlando to Belize

to preach the word of God

 

A young black man

tall and handsome

I could have made it to the NBA

 

When I heard the call of God

I gave up basketball

I started preaching and never looked back

 

Four years now

I travel the world

I’ll go anywhere God calls me to go

 

It’s my career now

I read and study the bible

at least three hours a day

 

I internalize the Word of God

It’s a living gospel

God tells me exactly what to preach

 

I want to move something

In people, especially the young adults

The young people need guidance

 

Sometimes I plan ahead

and I write my sermon

But sometimes, right in the moment

 

God just talks through me

 

 

She

Parama in triangle pose at Chincultik

I’ve stared my own death

in the face

many times

abused

raped

nearly killed

Did I deserve it?

 

Men 

afraid

of the goddess

can only 

possess her

vilify her

violate her

 

Jesus

He could not have been a woman

because then we’d say

“She deserved to die”

The bible would list all the reasons

why She deserved to suffer

for our sins

 

No good man

 

Parama in head wrap on bus

“It used to be

so simple,” he said

(Ephesians: “Wives, submit yourselves

to your own husbands 

as you do

to the Lord”)

 

“Bullshit,” I said

“It’s all fucked up now”

(I tried that. It failed.)

 

I’d love to belong to some man

to be his submissive wife

if there was a man out there

with his shit together

enough to provide for me

and to make me want

to submit to him

 

Until then

he said, “You have to wear the pants”

because I’m a woman 

without a man